February 4, 2012

  • Dreams.

     

    I dreamt that I had applied to college and gotten in again and I was super happy.

    They gave me a loaf of French bread as a congratulations gift.

     

    My mother was talking to me about how it wasn't that big a deal and I told her off.

     

    I woke up sad that I'm not going to school.

     

January 19, 2012

  • Dreams.

     

    I was able to float-fly and I was showing people that I could do it but most of the time it wasn't working well. I just floated back down to the ground.

    Then a woman and her daughter asked me to go to lunch with them and I agreed because the daughter was really attractive and around my age.

     

    Then in another dream I was watching a video of a stadium where a girl slipped and fell down the stairs, fell really far, and she was laying there saying she was fine and another girl came up to her and told her she had probably sprained her ankle and she really needed to get it checked out.

     

January 2, 2012

  • Dreams.

     

    I had an interesting dream. I don't remember some details of it.

     

    First I was in a house and Jeff was trying to find a young girl - 13, 14 - who was hiding from him.

    I wasn't sure why she was hiding from him, but I wouldn't help him find her.

    He got very angry. 

     

    I found her a few times and I just pretended not to see her. Then he looked at my face after I looked somewhere he hadn't checked, to see if he could tell if I'd found her. I said "What?!" and pretended like I hadn't.

     

    Then a bunch of people were hang-gliding over the ocean looking for her or something.

    There was a guy there who made a plan to untie ourselves from Jeff and someone else who was with him, and we would drift off somewhere away from them.

    So we did.

    While he was making this plan, I was deeply in love with him there over the ocean.

    Then suddenly we were on shore and he was walking away from me. He said "No, you cheated on me a long time ago." 

    And I said "No I didn't! I love you!" 

    And he told me to think harder, it was one of his friends from the hospital or something. 

    I suddenly remembered, apologized and said "Please, forgive me." 

    but he walked away.

     

    Then there was a house on the shore and suddenly I was actually in the dream.

    I saw the girl who had cheated on the man, and I asked her where he was. She begged me to help convince him to forgive her, and I told her I loved him and I would never cheat on him.

    (I assume that this is because I felt how much she loved him when I was sort of playing her character in the dream, which I don't think has happened in my dreams before - where I'm someone and then waking-life me shows up in the dream and I can see that character I used to be.)

     

    Then suddenly House from the tv show was there, and Cuddy.

    I suddenly became lucid and everything in the dream became very sharp and clear. I looked at this other guy who had been there and I watched his face come into focus. He had brown hair.

    I said "I'm dreaming! I came into this dream to find ____." and I knew the guy's name but the minute I woke up I couldn't remember it anymore.

    House looked at me weird.

    Cuddy was walking down the road and House started to follow her, 

    and I grabbed his hand. He had a ring on his ring finger, though it was his right hand. He was extremely tall.

    He didn't want to hold my hand.

    He joked that I would fall in love with him, too.

    I said that's not how love works, and besides, he's too much like me and we're both jerks, and I told him to hold my hand and help me find that guy.

     

December 29, 2011

  • Dreams.

     

    I've been dreaming a lot lately.

    The other night I dreamed that I had just moved into a huge beautiful house with my mother.

    The house had a porch made of stone, round stones, sort of cobblestone-like I guess.

    There was a view of water...a lake or a waterfall, something beautiful. 

    There was a little diner right next to the house, it was nice and the people were friendly. 

    We were on a busy street. Right across the street was the water.

     

    I was trying to figure out what room in the house I wanted. One room was full of stuffed animals and had a carpeted floor, I didn't want that room. Another room had no windows.

    Some rooms had nice wooden floors.

     

     

    Last night I dreamed that I was riding on a huge truck/some sort of machinery. 

    Then I had an "electric" wheelchair except it moved by me pulling on some saran wrap?

    Then this girl Courtney from high school was there, and she was basically telling me how much I suck,

    and I told her that all of them were horrible friends, especially Mona, and I can't believe she abandoned me.

     

    Then I was looking in a cabinet that was sitting out in the middle of nowhere. 

    I found some interesting black metal candleholders. I took two, then I picked up another one and Ingrid was there and she wanted the third one, so I gave it to her.

    Then Courtney started putting some small asian wooden musical instruments in the cabinet.

    I wanted them, but Courtney said I couldn't have them.

     

    Then I was dragging my stupid chair along a path and it got narrow and went up like a little cliff - only ten feet high or so, and people were walking on the path below to my right.

     

     

December 26, 2011

  • Dreams.

     

    It was the future.

    I was in a hovering airplane thing, it was small.

    There was a guy who was trying to ruin something. 

     

    Then I was out of the hovering airplane and there was a girl and someone was trying to hurt her or something, so I wrapped my arm around her and pushed off the ground and flew away with her. 

    When I fly in dreams it's always like pushing off the ground the way you would if you were on a swing or something. Weird.

     

December 4, 2011

  • Dreams.

    I had lots of dreams.

     

    The only ones I remember:

     

    A guy started puking, another guy was standing there and he said "Ugh I hate it when people puke in dreams it always makes me puke." 

    Then he started puking.

    Then I woke up about to drool all over myself but managed to stop.

    Strangely, I had JUST been talking to Jeremy about the fact that I've had two dreams where I was puking and then woke up spitting drool down my face.

    So there's the third one.

     

    In another dream I was in a big room with Jeremy and a bunch of other people.

    From across the room I saw a woman get close to Jeremy and she was being really chatty and touching him a lot, basically just looked like she was flirting.

    I walked up and held his hand and she was like "Who are you?" in an only slightly bitchy way, and I told her "I'm his wife." in a not at all bitchy way.

     

    ...Wow, subconscious. Wow.

     

November 16, 2011

  • Dreams.

    Jeremy was asking me to marry him.

     

    I said yes even though I was scared.

     

    Then I looked away and looked back and he was Charley instead.

    And my dream mind was confused and thought I'd just said yes to Charley.

    And I said, "Are you kidding? What about your drug problems? Do you think I don't know where you've been for the past few years?"

    And he was trying to joke with me and say he didn't have problems anymore,

    and I got up and walked away through a field.

     

November 8, 2011

  • Dreams.

     

    I was a photographer shooting Alessandra Ambrosio or whatever her name is.

    Then there was some guy chasing us in a car and he was going to go get all my cameras from my room and I was freaking out.

     

    Then I was with Jeremy in some horrible fucking Alice-in-Wonderland mindfuck place and everyone was forgetting about their old lives and we had to jump down a "rabbit hole" which was really this long metal tunnel and it was very narrow and had stuff floating around in it like the rabbit hole and then when we got to the bottom I was talking to some strange short man about how to get us out of there.

     

October 22, 2011

  • Dreams.

     

    There was a lion in a very short little pit and then he jumped out and was walking around.

     

October 12, 2011

  • Dreams.

     

    I dreamt that this guy I know in waking life was about to rape me.

    In waking life, he's gay.

     

    In the dream, when I was only thinking about myself, I was like, just lay here it will be over soon.

    When I thought about Jeremy I stopped it from happening.

     

    Depressing.