In one dream Jeremy and I were drinking beer and talking.

I told him I loved him and I mumbled it I guess, he said he couldn't hear me. I could tell he thought I didn't love him and we were on the outs.

I said it again and he said something like "That was barely any better."

I think he was really mad at me and disliked me.

In another dream, I dreamed that a chicken somehow stabbed itself in the throat to commit suicide.

I worked in a bigger grocery store, or I was just IN a big grocery store, 

and there was a monkey running wild in there, a little monkey.

And when it found me it liked me and wouldn't leave me alone.

In another dream I crapped all over my pants and I was in a public bathroom and I was crying, completely naked, holding my jeans,

and a nice older lady asked me if I had any "undies" with me and I said no, and I could tell she was going to help me out.

Some other women were just standing around awkwardly.

After Jeremy left for work this morning I fell back asleep for half an hour and in my dream I woke up to him having anal sex with me, and in the dream it was really hot? And it was like at first I wasn't sure if it was real then I reached behind myself and I could feel him, and then I was fully awake in the dream. We were on an air mattress in the dream and then when I looked some other couple was there in another room also on an air mattress.

My stomach skin was sagging over my pants and came to a POINT.

I was flipping out and went to my mom and insisted I needed to go to a doctor and I had no idea what was wrong,

and she said we didn't need to go to a doctor.

We kept fighting about it.

I was flossing my teeth and parts of my teeth just shaved right off and there were holes in my teeth.

A priest was there comforting me, and he and a bunch of other people were trying on costumes for some sort of party.

He was really nice. 

I was in some dark building and this person found two black hoodies near their baby stroller, and one had a bronze sculpture of a sleeping baby's head in the sleeve. 

We took this to be some scary threatening thing, and I realized that the hoodies were mine.

I think I was a police officer in the dream, in any case I was very close to an older rotund black man police officer and I told him I was afraid because this person was obviously trying to frame me and had my hoodies. He hugged me and said I'd be safe and I realized he had people watching me all of the time.

It was comforting.

In another dream I was supposed to go meet Dan at my old apartment building in KC, except it was my apartment building downtown, not the last one I lived in. (Or even the second to last or third to last apartment I lived in there...) 

I was looking for it and in the dream it was named the same name as the apartment building I live in with Jeremy in waking life right now.

And when I got to it I saw a sign that said the apartment building had moved a block away, but when I left it was only two doors down.

And it was scary as fuck.

So I start going into the building and it's dark as hell and I can't see anything and it smells bad and there's peeling paint on the walls and it's just dilapidated as fuck, and I'm scared and not going to make it far into the building. So then I turn left to go up some stairs and someone in front of me says something but I couldn't see them at all because it's so dark, and I just started yelling and ran out of the building.

Then Dan was outside and I was like, dude, what the fuck, what happened, when I lived in that building it wasn't like that, the management has gone straight to hell, holy shit.

Then we went to a bar and suddenly Dan was gone and I was with Jeremy and Kyle. Jeremy asked Kyle if my neckline was "plunging" and Kyle said something about me just having big boobs.

Then Jeremy's alarm went off.

I was at a party that had something to do with sharks.

Then my mother showed up and I was so angry that she was there that I grabbed my shoes and I was leaving, then she and my stepdad said they were giving me a ride so I went with them.

They had a little dog and they were driving a pick-up truck but they put the dog in the back and instead of the back having normal sides like a pick-up truck it only had bars and they were spaced far apart. I said, we can't leave the dog back there, what if he slides through the bars? And they said he'd be fine. Then I realized he also was tied with a leash to the truck, so potentially it could be even worse than I'd originally imagined, and I kept flipping out saying we had to put the dog in the cab of the truck but they wouldn't listen to me.

In another dream I was talking to Charley and I don't know if we were together or not but I was certainly acting like we were, because I was asking him to let me look through his phone, and he didn't want to let me.

And I was like "If you have nothing to hide it should be fine for me to look through your phone." and he still wouldn't let me.

Those dreams annoyed me.

I was asking Jeremy to have sex with me and he didn't feel like it.

I was in some room somewhere laying naked on a bed and propositioning him, and he played with me a little and then said I should go play tennis with Amanda. And I was like, uh, I don't want to play tennis. Then he left and Amanda was yelling from somewhere asking me if I wanted to play tennis.

This went on for quite some time where I was like "NO I DON'T WANT TO PLAY TENNIS TAKE OFF YOUR PANTS." and he wouldn't.

Then I was in the kitchen of Mona's old house from waking life, the one she grew up in, and there were four bags of corn chips in the cabinets that had been opened but hadn't been eaten yet. 

Then in another dream I was standing there spitting chunks of something out of my mouth and the chunks kept coming.

Someone asked me if I ate a person.

I looked down and saw white fleshy meat and a rib. 

The same person who had asked me, asked "Or did either of YOU eat a person?" and I looked and there were two people to my right and I knew somehow that we were all connected and we were one big entity.

The guy on the end said that he did eat a person, and then it started flashing back to what had happened.

So the guy on the end was hanging out somewhere in a pit, god knows why, and a bunch of kids came up and tried to mug him, and he had a box cutter in his hand and he accidentally decapitated one kid. Not even just slit his throat with it, but completely decapitated him.

Then all the other kids ran off or something,

then there was another group of guys and one guy either pissed him off or maybe even did nothing at all wrong, but the guy starts ripping his skin off, and I mean first he rips the skin off from the back of his legs, then he pulls on the rest of his skin until it makes a "pop" sound and just pops off, then he's eating him,

and another guy was watching the whole thing.

So then I'm spitting up pieces of that guy because we're all one huge connected monster even though we appear to be three separate people standing there.

I had a million dreams. I can't remember most of them.

In one dream I was near a hill where there was all this food that needed to be kept frozen. It wasn't being kept frozen. I knew it was going to be bad. I asked some guy if we could load the food into his truck and move it to a freezer and he looked at me like I was crazy because I guess we were just supposed to get the food off of the hill.

Then I climbed up the hill and went into a house and I was taking photographs of people interacting with each other, then there was some kind of sexy party where everyone in the room sat in a circle and held hands, and Jeremy was to my left and then everyone starts making out / touching whoever they're with or walking up to people they want or whatever.

Jeremy and I made out, then he moved away somewhere, then two guys beelined for me and my phone went off and I was like "Hang on a minute!" and checked my text hoping it was Jeremy, and I didn't want to do anything with those guys. 

Then the dream suddenly switched and I was in a room with a bunch of women from the party and no guys, and we were going through racks of clothes to find lingerie to put on, and then we'd be fooling around with each other I guess.

Then suddenly I realized most of the racks around me were actually children's clothes (not lingerie) and the dream ended.

In another dream I was outside of a warehouse and there was a Nike truck and the warehouse held something else, and I was talking to two other people about the business, then I was talking to them about maybe having children in the future and I'm not sure if I was pregnant or not in the dream.

In another dream Mona and I were on the bus and the bus driver wouldn't take us down this one road she needed to go down, so I told her I'd walk with her. We got off of the bus and it was late at night and we walked and then we were just going to walk back the way we had come, but then a car pulled up with an old woman driving and a dog in the backseat. 

The dog for whatever reason was romantically/sexually interested in people which was weird, but we got in the car and then the woman grabbed just one of my fingers on my left hand and she drove us while talking to us and holding my finger like that. 

It was weird.

I had boots on and I had them on the wrong feet.

I was in a room with some other people and I tried to inconspicuously switch my boots and then I realized I was putting them on wrong in some other way. 

I'm not sure if I ever got them on right.

In another dream I was in a room with a woman and one other girl, and we were all working on the same design for a huge mural. In the dream we were calling it a mural but it was made out of fabric and we could paint it or sew other fabric onto it. We each had to do our best design and only one would be chosen in the end.

The other girl was being lazy and didn't want to do it at all.

The woman was very bossy and kept trying to tell us how to do it.

I wanted to sew the mural and I dug through some extra scraps for fabric with orange coloring. Some had stripes.

Part of the mural was a woman's face and I wanted to make her nose out of a yellow star.

I was hanging out with Colin Meyn from high school. In waking life, he ignored me all through high school and seemed like a huge jerk, then one day in the hall he said hi to me and I seriously did that thing where you look around to see if someone's actually talking to you. He was. It surprised me so much I still remember it. I don't think I even said hi back.

Anyway, in the dream we were hanging out at his house. I was waiting for Jeremy to come pick me up. 

Colin was being nice and it seemed like we were not great friends, but we knew each other and were comfortable around each other.

I told him I was tired so I was going to lay on the couch to wait for Jeremy.

Then Colin started laying on the couch too, but we laid on it in opposite directions so our feet were near each other's heads.

Then Jeremy called or I called him, and he was out partying somewhere and I was like "Where are you? I'm so tired." and he seemed unconcerned and I can't even remember what he said. I just remember feeling really disappointed like he didn't care about me.

I had another dream too but now I can't remember what was happening.

I woke up from that first dream and I was really sad that I was having a bad dream about Jeremy.