I keep having the weirdest dreams lately.

The other day I dreamt that Jeremy and I had a baby daughter and we were waiting for a bus. When the bus came, he got on the bus and left without me. I was chasing the bus saying "Wait for me! Wait for me!" and it just drove away.

Last night I dreamt that we were walking through the city we lived in (a dream city, not our waking life city) and heading to our apartment.

He told me that he was going to rent a room for the night, just for himself.

I wondered why and he just rented it and spent the night there.

The next day I somehow found out he had called some sex phone line and was talking to them about ME, basically fantasizing over the phone with some other woman who wasn't me. They were talking about me being a good mother and for some reason that was turning him on.

There was other stuff too that I can't remember.

I was so upset with him that I couldn't even talk, and he made fun of me for not being able to say why I was upset.

Ingrid was in the dream too, and she had pink hair like she did in high school and all I could think was that I hoped he didn't see her since he likes girls with pink hair and I was already feeling really insecure.

I had a dream a few nights ago that Jeremy and I were driving through a war zone. He wanted to get out and walk around. I told him chances were that something way more awful would happen to me than to him if we got out of the car. He ended up running off somewhere and cheating on me with a black lady, the black lady made fun of my hair.

In a dream last night I was stuck in a tank with a killer whale at the zoo. For months. They kept saying they'd get me out but nobody did, so eventually I had a machete and I cut through some screens like on a screen door and I escaped.