July 1, 2012

  • Dreams.

     

    I was standing outside of a men's restroom, which Jeremy was using.

     

    There was a pile of four baseball caps outside and I saw a "New Belgium" one that looked cool, and a young guy walked up and saw it as well and took it.

    The guy who plays Jim from the Office was standing there and I think he cracked a joke and I laughed.

     

    Then Jeremy came out of the bathroom and said "I have these two engagement rings, one is real and one is fake."

    and when I asked to see them he wouldn't let me, I saw them very briefly but couldn't really look at them.

     

    Then he showed me our wedding rings which he had also bought and mine changed as I looked at it.

    Initially it was like a man's ring with a celtic design on it.

    Then it was more like a design you'd see in Tron.

    Then it was a bunch of linked metal pieces so big it was like a bracelet, and I put it on my wrist and looked at it and realized it was made of interlocking animals. They were all jungle / wild animals like Lions and Rhinoceros. 

    Then as I looked at it they turned into rubber and he got really concerned and said they were supposed to be made out of leather. (Before, they were metal.)

     

     

     

    In another dream I barely remember, Jeremy did something to test my reaction. Oh, he told me he'd never slept with anyone else before. 

    I was like, but you told me you've slept with your exes.

    He said all he did was kiss them and never had sex with them.

    I said, you're lying to me.

    He said he wasn't.

    I said, then you've been lying to me this whole time saying you slept with them before.

    He just looked at me without saying anything, then I started walking around gathering my things.

    He said something like a half-assed apology and I told him not to bother and insinuated that I was leaving, and he seemed surprised.

    I told him I can't believe anything he says if he's constantly testing my reaction and I don't want to be in a relationship with someone who's constantly manipulating me. 

    He tried to say it wasn't a big deal, and I told him it just seems like it's not a big deal because he's lying about something so fucking stupid right now, but I have no idea where he draws the line and what his motivation is for lying about stupid crap when he could just not do that.

     

    I was very upset.